Its been a while...

Quite some time from the last time I took a break to unload my mind...

Even now, I cannot do it... I cannot take time off to do things I like. I am trapped into a vicious struggle, between my dream and my reality. Between my wants and my needs, between my insatiable hunger for success and achievement and my lust for everyday life.

Keeping a balance... Hah... I never did that, I never envisioned myself doing it, and therefore I cannot achieve it, I cannot materialise it, I do not want to.

So,it is down to a simple, cold, strict, calculated and irreversible decision that will define the course of action I will take, and will influence all actions for the time to come... This is not something new to me, nor is it something difficult to do...

And if I didn't know myself, and the commitment I can have, then it would be very easy to choose.

Only, I do not yield, I do not give up, even if that means that it will kill me. Therefore, any decision made - even out of stubbornness - will be seen through...

The problem is that I don't know - for a change! - what I want to see through...