Drained....

I' ve been quite busy lately. Busy trying to figure out how the fuck am I going to deal with the things that are coming...with the grim future that waves at me from the corner, knowing that I lack the necessary means to avoid it, and that inevitably I will ram into it...Why must it be so cruel? Why is there a need to satisfy the sadistic nature of it, especially when there is no escape? Where does the need to prolong the inevitable come from? It escapes me, and it baffles me...I must find time and energy to deal with it...Revenge will be mine, one way or another....