leave...

I want to leave civilization... I want to go away... I am isolated within it and can still survive... I can do so elsewhere... I want to live in fear, under the regime of survival of the fittest! I want to be able to respond as I feel and as I want to challenges... Challenges that are made under false pretenses, under the illusion of security provided by the Big Brother... Challenges that I live unanswered and hanging... Haunting me until I manage to satisfy my needs, my wants...

Alas, when I do, I do so in such manner that it simply is not acceptable by my peers... And since neither party involved in this uncomfortable situation is willing to bulge in principle, the only reasonable solution is to diverse the conflicting paths...

Not always pleasant, and more often than not not desirable, this separation is necessary for survival... maybe not physical but definitely mental and emotional survival...

If only it was that simple...
If only you new...