refill

I need to empty my mind and soul…

I need to refill my emptiness…

I need to be happy and funny again…

I need to be interesting again… To myself, not to others; according to my liking, not others…

I need to rethink my approach, but above all, I need to make real whatever I think about, instead of fretting my life with it…

I need to enjoy something again… And I must find that something again…

I used to have stories to tell. As time went by, I used to have more stories to tell, with no need to repeat or look back into the past for something to remember; only to tap into experience to improve or deal with a situation that needs to be dealt with…

Now, I have to look back to search for a time I was happy and interesting… Now I need to look back and think if I was ever happy or interesting. Why? Have I done everything to this point wrong? Have I been so blind and so narrow-sighted that I sacrificed everything in order to secure an imaginary future?

Well, there will be no future if I don’t create a present soon…

There is nothing left for me in my past, I have made sure of this with carefully calculated actions… I have no patience for the future, so all I have is the present…

Time to make something about it, is it not?

Time to change again… For a while…

As I said… When all else fails, try and try again…

Until success is achieved…