Interesting first month... Full... Fulfilling... Intense...
I missed that... I missed the ability to say that I am feeling good. And not lie while saying it. I missed feeling challenged. I missed having the feeling that after all, you do have choices and if you make them carefully, or rather wisely - one doesn't necessary require the other - you can make a difference and you can make your life better. I never gave up, but I did seriously doubted whether I would ever truly feel that way.
Recently though, I was proven right to. Not in any direct or spectacular way, but still, for my needs and for my understanding it was good enough. I was called so many things the last ten days that I can barely remember half of them to mention. So I will not. Suffice to say that one was a dead rat, and the other a selfish, obnoxious bastard. Both of them true. You know why I was called those names? And most importantly, why I didn't get pissed off? A. Because I told the truth. Well, actually not the truth, but my opinion, which was more sincere and true than either could handle. B. They are true, and there is absolutely no reason to get pissed off when people tell you the truth in your face.
And for that I got rewarded... Greatly... And I was reassured that having no faith in the human species and in humans was the wisest choice I have ever made. And I will stick to it.
True... For some I do hold Pandora's box, and I do open it and close it to my convenience. If it bothers people so much, all they have to do is ask for it, and I will gladly give it. But you see, no one really wants it. No one wants to take responsibility for it and face the remote event that someone from somewhere may hold him responsible for something. So, I keep it...
And I will continue to use it as I see fit...
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As they only could occupy how much different you are, understand in minimal and then you would flood them with light! The box you carry and hermetically you protect it does not have key, it is unlocked but all those that you malign are possessed by ignorance for your person. They will never occupy what you really are because otherwise they would do everything to share it with you and be proud for this. Unless they do not want it or they can’t afford it and they run away. Keep your box, maybe someone special deserve it and gained it with efforts and pain. It seems like I see myself, I have my precious box also and except long time ago nobody could even touch it!
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